This is exactly what I need to do, like, it seriously applies to every aspect of my life ever.
* To amend or improve by change of form - Obviously I would love to change the form of my body. Please. I just need to lose this weight.
* removal of faults - ok, I have a TON of faults. Really, I do.
----------1. I can't be happy with other people's success. When someone is better than me I want to tear them down, instead of building myself up. This is something I'm really not happy about. I'm really going to work on this.
----------2. I lie. ALOT. I'm admitting this one time only. And on an anonymous online blog. I will never say this again, or in real life. If I did, a ton of people would hate me. I NEED to stop lying.
----------3. I'm really super lazy. This one is killing me in school. I must get my act together or I can say goodbye to college, my sorority, my boyfriend, all my sisters, my future. It's scary how fast I could lost it all.
I know I have other faults, but these are just the ones that are super problematic/ really bothering me right now.
* removal of abuses - I abuse alcohol. And weed. And I use my drunken/high state as an excuse to do bad things. My boyfriend should seriously dump me. I deserve it.
Sooo this entire thing feels like a ton of self hate or something and you might be worried I'm gonna go cut myself now or something. But don't. It's really just motivating me. I want to change. I want to be a better person. I want to reform.
I saw this picture in SELF. I freaking love it. She's not like perfectly skinny, but she's close. And she's surrounded by hot guys. This is my motivation to make it to the gym this week.
We are in the middle of a lot of reforms. It's high time we reform ourselves how we need to be to make ourselves happy. Nobody else's oppinions matter. Just make yourself happy. Love ya.
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