Tuesday, July 26, 2011

"She lights a joint and drinks til she's blind....

Just wonderin if she's outta her mind..."

So tonight I was feeling really down. Or maybe I was feeling up. I'm not really sure. Either way, I felt like I needed to get fucked up and forget everything. I don't really know why.

I obviously have a drinking problem. Well not just drinking. Anything to get me out of my mind.

But I've been doing better lately. I haven't done any kind of drug since mid-june. I haven't drank since July 1st.

And tonight I didn't drink either. I went to a fair and chilled with the friends of a friend. People like me sober too, it turns out. I had fun.

I didn't fast today, I actually ate a shit ton. I don't care though, I'm proud of myself.

Monday, July 25, 2011

I've been MIA...?

Sorry I haven't posted on here for awhile, if anybody even reads this. But a lot has happened to me this summer, ALOT. But more on that later.

For now, I just want to tell you that we can learn a lot from Jason Stackhouse (From True Blood....I'm obsessed with True Blood.) But anyway, on an episode I was watching the other day he says he gets a ton of pussy because he works out like crazy. Amazing point Jason! Seriously though, it got me thinking. The people who have the bodies I want are working their ass off to get their bodies. And I'm just sitting on my ass. I can wish I had a Victoria's Secret model's body as much as I want but she's working for that body like it's her job (it is). And this is all common knowledge, I know that. But sometimes I need a reality check that's just like, Haley, get your ass in gear and change something or nothing will change.

So this is just something to think about.

A few times this summer I've done this 3 day cycle where I fast for 2 days and then eat about 500 calories the 3rd. It's not really as hard as I thought it would be, and I lose like 6 pounds each time I do it. Unfortunately then I usually go 2 weeks without thinking twice about what I'm eating so I gain it all back. I really have lost about 10 pounds since I've been home from school though so it's not entirely bad. Anyway what I want to do is 7, 3-day cycles. Which will be really tough. But you have to work hard for those rockin' bodies, girlies.

Wish me luck ;)