The last few days have been so weird. I've been pretty sick, I'm pretty sure I've only gone to one class all week. I've been sleeping all the time. Like at least 65% of the time the last 4 days. And when I'm awake I just lie in bed like on facebook and stuff. I went to the doctor on Wednesday and all they could tell me was I don't have the flu. I hope I'm better soon.
SO anyway, what's been going on?
On Tuesday night I think? Alex's roommate, Matt (I call him Suzy), drunk skyped me and we talked for like 2 and a half hours. Suzy and his bestie, Ryan, are two of the guys I'm closest to in their house so it's not really that weird I guess. But he kept on being like I just wanted sex for my birthday (It was his birthday lol) and I'd be like yeah man what's a birthday without sex? and then he'd be like haha exactly. And it kept on seeming like he would ask me to come over (I was praying he wouldn't take it there), but then he wouldn't. Towards the end of the conversation he was like I keep on wanting to say dirty things to you, but then I don't cuz you're super cool and I want to be able to be friends with you and most girls just stop talking to me whenever I do that, and this is the longest convo I've ever had with someone, knowing I wasn't getting anything out of it, and I'm cool with it. I just like talking to you and stuff.
And other Lambda Chi's have facebook chatted me this week, so that all makes me feel good, like I'm still cool with them, and hopefully I'll be able to start hanging out at their house more soon.
Oh, and I don't care about Alex today. I keep thinking about him, but it's not bringing up any like feelings or anything.
I also feel like me and my big sister have gotten closer this week, mainly because we've both been sick and trapped in our room all day.
Oh, and I came to this realization. Guys aren't talking to me because I'm not dateable. Honestly, I'm the girl you either try to get with at parties because I'm trashed as fuck, or I'm the girl you like to hang out with at parties because I'm hilarious when I'm trashed as fuck. And I feel like that has a lot to do with why Alex broke up with me. Like, he was probably getting shit for having the train-wreck girlfriend. And I never realized that I was like out of hand because I see other girls get out of control, but they don't do it like 3-5 times a week. Actually they probably do it like once every month or so. So, my bad.
Idk if I want to stop getting crazy though. I mean, St. Pats is in 14 daze. So that's like 2 weeks of EVERYONE getting crazy. And then there's spring break. So another week of that. And then there's only like another month of school. Should I finish out my freshman year, or chill out?? I can't decide.
And also on a good note, as of this morning, I've lost 4.4 pounds since Tuesday, and I haven't eaten all day today. I really hope I'll be able to not eat until I wake up tomorrow, but I'm gonna be up really late thanks to a wonderful paper I haven't started, and I'm starting to get hungry. Shit.