Okay so I took pictures of myself this morning, and I'm really really really gross looking. Scratch that being healthy thing, I really just want to lose weight.
I can't bring myself to post the pictures until I have something better to compare them to, but I promise that will be soon. I weighed myself this morning and I was 163, but I've been eating and drinking all day almost. Candy and alcohol, exactly what I need.
I think I'm gonna start trying to eat like 800-1000 (healthy) calories a day, with occasional fasts. No more drinking for awhile. And I plan on doing 2 cardio workouts a day. I NEED to lose this fat before I go back to school. There is literally nothing appealing about me right now, it's sooo disgusting. Girls like me can't look like shit. I have got to get myself together.