Tuesday, November 2, 2010

If I were you I wouldn't take me back, just let me down.

That's really all I have left to say about Gold. I really do want to be with him.

But he's distracting me from more important things. Like losing weight. This blog has done a pretty good job at making me seem like I only have a little tiny, occasional problem with my body. Let me clear this up for you.

I HATE MY BODY. There's so much wrong with it. I can never be happy when I'm this fat. Never. I can't eat more than 400 calories without hating myself. My complete lack of self control is ridiculous. It's what I hate about myself most.

I want to be skinny so bad. A size zero instead of 8, please. A size 8 is seriously disgusting. It's overweight. Way overweight. But everyone today thinks it's normal. Someone even called me thin today. What is wrong with the world!? How can someone think that a girl who weighs close to 160 pounds is thin!? That is so wrong. Anything more than 125 can never be thin. Anything more than 135 can't even be healthy. Just we live in a world that's so obsessed with being fat.

Recently I've been binging a lot. HORRIBLE. This needs to stop now. It's ruining my 75 day plan. Because of this, for the next 10 days I'm gonna keep it under 300 calories consumed a day. And over 600 burned. Fuck fat. It's time for it to be gone.

A perfectly worked for stomach. fABS!

I just love this :(

I want her life.

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