Monday, May 2, 2011

New Highest Weight and I want to die.

I'm seriously trying so hard not to burst into tears right now because I just weighed myself for the first time in weeks and the scale said

165

What the fuck. I want to hurt myself so badly right now. But I can't. I have to be calm right now because I have a final in an hour. A final I need to do well on to stay in school. Yeah why are my grades like this???

What was I thinking? Why didn't I try harder with my school work. And Try harder with starving. Or try at all for either.

I can not believe I'm this fat. Panic panic panic panic.

FUCK

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