Monday, February 6, 2012

yikes it's been awhile

My life has been hectic and dramatic.

I have so many ups and downs, I really could not tell you how I am just in general. At the moment, I'm good.

I got a 94% on my first chem test and a 46% on my first calc test. yikes.

I have been staying in during the week, though. So that's boring.

My roommate is driving me insane. She is super effing weird and annoying. Her voice makes me want to punch a baby.

My friends Kay and Jay got in a fight. Which was really awkward for me, like I would go out with Kay and Jay would call me and tell me to come to a party, but if I tried to show up with Kay, she would get us both kicked out. She was calling Kay a whore (which she's slept with like 1/10 of the guys that Jay has soooo....) and making her cry, trying to get her banned from fraternities. So I tried to talk to Jay and she got mad at me for choosing sides and tried to get me get kicked out of places too. SO, that friendship is over. She's done things like this before and to everyone else she's ever been friends with too. Everyone tells me I should drop her as a friend soooo I'm kinda feeling good about this.

ummmmmm I passed out in an elevator the other weekend. annnddddd ummm idk I haven't really done anything exciting I think. I feel like I have and I'm forgeting about it but idk

For those of you who have been following for like ever, I have to bring up an old, old, old topic. Alex.

Now that I'm back at school I've been seeing him around every now and then and I ran into him at a party on friday night and he starts talking to me and i'm like yikesssss and run to the bathroom. But he keeps talking to me and like following me around. and I keep avoiding him. soon he starts texting me being like can we please talk, I just want to talk to you. shit like that.

To make a longggg story short, I go with him, he tells me he wants to get back together, we hook up and I leave and then the next night I end up at his house again and he tells me the same things again and says he wants to take it slow and he wants me to trust him and shit. And I have no idea what I think about all this. Like, I was seriously completely over him. But he was like saying things like we can talk for hours and everything is just so easy with you, there's nothing forced at all. idk he's right and I'm afraid I won't find that again very easily and if I immediately just say no to this, I think I'll regret it, or like always wonder. So I think I'm just gonna give it some time. but if there's no spark again soon, I'm gonna be done with him for life.

Also, do you guys like Lana Del Rey?? I've been listening to her literally nonstop!! And she is super gorgeous!! Check her out!

1 comment:

  1. wow she rly is super pretty! Gud job on the chem test! and its always gud to make decisions tht are good for ur own wellbeing & i mean its hard letting go of a friendship. Hope things work out. Stay strong<3