i'm back at school and I hate it. I feel so aloneeee.
My roommate is so weirddd, but luckily she shacks sometimes. I'm pretty sure I'm not even gonna try to reinstate in my sorority. All the girls are telling me I just need to stop hanging out with my old best friend. My best friend is like so loyal, but she gets on my nerves a lot. I think I've grown up some and she hasn't. My other best friend who is coming back this semester after a suicide attempt last semester has already withdrawn from school. Which is exactly what I want to do. I don't like fit in at this school anymore. ughhhhhhhhh
I really just want like a boyfriend. Which is like a stupid thing to say but like, idk having someone I can just like cuddle and watch movies with at the end of the say is seriously needed right now.
I'm being so crazy right now. I'm binging and purging, crying all the time, skipping class, going on crazy homework binges, drinking til I can't stand, hooking up with random people. I know this isn't how I should be acting right now but I literally can't stop. ughhhh