"She lights a joint and drinks til she's blind....

Just wonderin if she's outta her mind..."

So tonight I was feeling really down. Or maybe I was feeling up. I'm not really sure. Either way, I felt like I needed to get fucked up and forget everything. I don't really know why.

I obviously have a drinking problem. Well not just drinking. Anything to get me out of my mind.

But I've been doing better lately. I haven't done any kind of drug since mid-june. I haven't drank since July 1st.

And tonight I didn't drink either. I went to a fair and chilled with the friends of a friend. People like me sober too, it turns out. I had fun.

I didn't fast today, I actually ate a shit ton. I don't care though, I'm proud of myself.