I have no idea as to what to do with my life.

I've been home from school for almost 2 weeks now. I'm not even sure what that means.

I know I'm not meant to have a normal life. I don't want that "perfect" life that people like to act like they have. I want to be a little crazy. I am a little crazy, my actions should reflect that.

Last year before I went off to school I had this major freak out. I was thinking, "Really? Is this it? I'm not doing something crazy and unique with my life? I'm going to college now and being normal."

And then I decided I like college. My college. My friends. But it wasn't my life. Not yet, anyway. I can come back to that, I know. There's all the time in the world for being boring and mature. But you're only young once. I don't want to look back and feel like I wasted my youth.

And it's scary because at the beginning of Spring semester I was so close to going into that perfect life and never coming back. All I had to do was play perfect for awhile.

Instead I went crazy.

So I'm using this summer to come up with a plan of what to do next. What do I need to do now? I need to lose weight first of all. You can't have a crazy, beautiful life without being skinny and confident. I need money too. And a car.

Skinny + Money + A Way Out = Free