“The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less

Wow. Apparently I was in serious need of some butt kicking.

Thank you, Jackie, for giving that to me. Thanks for the reality check and ideas and helping me realize that I AM better than this.

And mostly thank you for making me realize that Alex sucks.

Soooo glad I can say that.

Needless to say, I have some new found motivation and self respect and it's exactly what I've needed. I was able to go out last night and not get trashed. I still drank and got a little silly, but definitely not out of control. The craziest thing about last night? The guy I was hanging out with most of the time. He was a nice, innocent guy. He talked to me about school and how his house can help me anytime I need it. He bought me some drunk Huddle House at like 1 am. He taught me how the guys in his house climb onto the roof of my house. And we chilled on the roof and talked for a few hours. And when it was time for bed he walked me to my front door and gave me a hug. Interesting.

I'm obviously off track with food and not feeling the best about that but I will do better tomorrow, I promise.



Thanks to anyone who is reading this just for caring enough to read.